Even the strong need help every now and then.

My name is Gina and I am 46 years old. I was diagnosed with a severe form of arthritis when I was just 25 years old. It eventually put me in a wheelchair for life. When I was 31, I was rushed by ambulance to the ER with my heart beating 200 times a minute. After several tests, I was diagnosed with a heart condition called Ventricular Tachycardia and a defibrillator/pacemaker was implanted. My heart has been shocked more times than I care to remember and doctors have told me I should not even be alive after a few of the episodes I have gone through. But I have always been strong... at least until the last few months. I feel like life is just passing me by and I have missed out on so much. I had a son when I was 22, but he died of complications from premature birth. It took a while for me to want to try again and that was when my health problems started. I feel like the harder I try to make the best of the life I have, the harder that life just beats me down. I have no friends or family with health problems like I have and I get so tired of them saying they understand how I feel. Nobody can truly understand unless they wake up every morning facing the same things I do. I guess that is what brought me here... hoping to find people that do know. Thank you for taking the time to read my post.

I won't say I understand how you feel but I feel the same as you, when I was 12yrs old maybe younger all my problems started when I thought I got used to having one problem another joined the party and this has gone on even up to this day. And 15yrs ago I thought I was pregnant and a couple of days later I was rushed into hospital in agony and I thought I was having a miscarriage only to find I was never pregnant and I had endrometriosis. It was so bad I had to have a full Hysterectomy. Life can deal you a cruddy hand of cards but I find you just have to get on with it otherwise life will pass you by. I hope this site will help you get on the right track.

Life is not fair sometimes, you just have to hope for more sunshine and less storms, hope you find a safe harbour here.