"ACCEPTANCE" poem I wrote about me accepting my disability and my new life!

It hurts to know the past is gone
The present's heavy with lots unknown
My life has changed in many ways
My mood is like a roller coaster
It's up and down more down than up
And out of no where, intrusive thoughts
Was in the hospital, quite many times
The doctor said I have bi polar
I also think I got a panic disorder
My dream of being a wealthy business man
Inspire others and let them know they can
Is fading fading like when the sun goes down
I firmly think I cant hold a job
If I'm sometimes down and sometimes up
I'm unreliable and that's a problem
On top of that I have depression
It’s hard for me to take a shower
To brush my teeth I have no power
I’m searching for my happiness
A place where I belong
I just want to be okay
Love, laugh, talk and play

Very nice poem Alex