Lupus, Sjogrens Syndrome, Spine is shot, clotting disorder, cancer survivor

**NEW2 THIS SO PLZ BE PATIENT Multiple DX's so I just clicked Other, tired of isolation, depression, being ghosted by old "friends"...forgotten.
I'm a good man & father. Don't want any relations with religious people, you do you but do not preach me, deal-breaker.
I lean toward Eastern stuff, Energy Healing for myself. Every day is different with what I live with, some days I wake at 4 o'clock feeling like crap, want to use Cannabis whenever it gets decriminalization.
From the West coast but ended up here, my plan was to retire to the Southwest but got sick and I'm unable to afford relocation.
Watch TV (mostly documentarys) and have many books but it's hard to read, between the glasses and holding the book, nerve damage in my spine and fingers going numb...maybe a Kindle is in my future, looking into it, love my dog completely.
It would be nice to make a pen pal/friend and someone to talk with. Struggling with Time vs doing the things I wanna do & experience

Music, concerts, traveling or road trips, History, like documentaries about civil rights. Hate racism, bullies and politics. Used to play music, want to learn the Bass guitar,..sorry I don't do country music but love Willie Nelson lol
Unable to do my old hobbies anymore, do enjoy target shooting, archery but don't hunt (definitely not a gun nut, am against assault type weapons) very kind towards wildlife, would love a good camera someday as well as go hiking, would love to ride a motorcycle again, like watching NFL football but don't get into all the stats or betting, just enjoy a good game. Do love to cook, mostly different ethnic types like Thai food omg, India food shows, Japanese, Anthony Bourdain is an idol I guess

Rock, Punk, Classic Rock, Blues, love Willie Nelson but not country

Too many to list

Football, Documentaries, streaming TV is about all I watch