saberius
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Location
United States
Michigan
About Me
30 - 45
Male
Aspergers Syndrome
meeting new friends
Much about me is internalized, that's why I often look for dreams to enhance my view and find a sense of joy and creativity in that. I consider myself a drifter, a dreamer, looking more at visions, visuals then reality and life, it's like I can open my eyes for a smile I genuinely feel and shut my eyes for what is painful or creates a discomfort.
Emotional, sensitive, lonely, and things in between, but each of the things that defines a person, an individual can be open for change but some things don't change, it's more the world around that change.
I escape, I look and I see and I keep escaping into my own world, but it's cold and lonely, reality is cold and harsh but what I see is not where I wanna live and feel my hearts passion, but I see something I can on my own create, can you see that also?
For me writing, music and emotions is who I am, my voice is not muted but the internal dreams is viewed with a personal clarity that reality often don't give me, due to not being understood, feeling confused and not understanding.
I am the red and the blue, but red without the pain and blue for the clear summer skies even if life does not conform to my view I still see it.
Thomas
Emotional, sensitive, lonely, and things in between, but each of the things that defines a person, an individual can be open for change but some things don't change, it's more the world around that change.
I escape, I look and I see and I keep escaping into my own world, but it's cold and lonely, reality is cold and harsh but what I see is not where I wanna live and feel my hearts passion, but I see something I can on my own create, can you see that also?
For me writing, music and emotions is who I am, my voice is not muted but the internal dreams is viewed with a personal clarity that reality often don't give me, due to not being understood, feeling confused and not understanding.
I am the red and the blue, but red without the pain and blue for the clear summer skies even if life does not conform to my view I still see it.
Thomas
Trance music, writing, gaming, movies, cats, exercise
Uplifting trance, goa trance
FOR HAMAEEL. HIS MUSIC IS WHAT I FEEL.
FOR HAMAEEL. HIS MUSIC IS WHAT I FEEL.
My Penpal
Hi there I'm Thomas, I'm looking for a female email pen pal that likes to write and have something in common with me, I feel in terms of friendship, to define it, I think it's important to have something in common. and that is also more emotionally and not just interest, to understand the thoughts and want to be part in connecting together, and that to me is defined friendship.
In 1996 I started my interest in writing, as I gotten older, I became more into escapism, not to say writing is a form of storytelling, but personal thoughts and feelings I mean. I don't think there is a purpose for me to look at daily life and life and say that is worth writing about, what does that say about me as an individual, I don't think so.
If you like creativity in words, emotions inside your self, looking at things from how it feels, thoughts to share, that is what I embrace. I think a woman that can look at writing and feel the joy from it, can understand that what I seek is writing from the heart and soul, and not a phrase for nothing but write and feel, visualize the thoughts and see that being creative, being one self is writing, a reflection and a connection, together when being alone.
Writing is a longing for understanding and connecting, not about reality or stories, but about the heart of me as an individual, the sense that there is not pain, no confusion, no discomfort, just a connecting feeling of relating to one another emotionally, if you understand that contact me.
Anonymous and yet open and seen, closed off and yet welcoming, that is the form and choosing to express it in my own way.
My email for direct connection or a message here as a bubble of sorts, wizardnerevarine@gmail.com
Thomas
In 1996 I started my interest in writing, as I gotten older, I became more into escapism, not to say writing is a form of storytelling, but personal thoughts and feelings I mean. I don't think there is a purpose for me to look at daily life and life and say that is worth writing about, what does that say about me as an individual, I don't think so.
If you like creativity in words, emotions inside your self, looking at things from how it feels, thoughts to share, that is what I embrace. I think a woman that can look at writing and feel the joy from it, can understand that what I seek is writing from the heart and soul, and not a phrase for nothing but write and feel, visualize the thoughts and see that being creative, being one self is writing, a reflection and a connection, together when being alone.
Writing is a longing for understanding and connecting, not about reality or stories, but about the heart of me as an individual, the sense that there is not pain, no confusion, no discomfort, just a connecting feeling of relating to one another emotionally, if you understand that contact me.
Anonymous and yet open and seen, closed off and yet welcoming, that is the form and choosing to express it in my own way.
My email for direct connection or a message here as a bubble of sorts, wizardnerevarine@gmail.com
Thomas
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Having no control, yet having a lot of control is a contradiction full of relief, loss of independence. It is a cold feeling to lose control, where there is chaos among things, yet control is found.
Expectations and dreams, as the hope produce how things should be, expecting the positive and good. Happy to be in the moment, the dream is the instant sustained joy. Personal, lost and forgotten.
The day starts, with the news in the media, repetitions, wishful thinking masquerading as news can be hard to filter out, due to no one knows anything, until the next day, apathy, empathy, what gives.
Visual dreams through music and writing is a special feeling. During running also with, a melancholy feeling, as I distance myself from what is around, ponder what is the purpose of what I experience.
Graphic novels, it's visuals, story is similar to the melodic music that has an emotional visual attachment, it's attractive, gives the escapism a clear sense of clarity, joy. Visuals for good mood.
Assumption of the view, perceptions that linger. Complicated with a sense of low self confidence, not spoken, yet when the supreme of surface can not abide by the depth of what is felt. I stand alone.
Narrow minded, someone vocalizes a statement, further on, an opinion forms. I look at the opinion and wonder, why is there a claim to be open and inclusive, yet narrow. Mind my soul.
Live life to the fullest, bothers me, I think without individual insights, it can feel and be a bit condescending even if it comes from a place of empathy, compassion. Without context, it's empty.
Being nervous is more about insecurity I personally feel, being anxious is more about emotional fear that can tap into an manic intensity that prolongs more, deeper, then again it can change in time.
A moments melody, to equal, emotional mood is a bright smile for the day. Each mood, moment can enhance or deprive the inner allure in feeling happy. It's not all life, music is as good as how it feel