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About Me
30 - 45
Aspergers Syndrome
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Much about me is internalized, that's why I often look for dreams to enhance my view and find a sense of joy and creativity in that. I consider myself a drifter, a dreamer, looking more at visions, visuals then reality and life, it's like I can open my eyes for a smile I genuinely feel and shut my eyes for what is painful or creates a discomfort.

Emotional, sensitive, lonely, and things in between, but each of the things that defines a person, an individual can be open for change but some things don't change, it's more the world around that change.

I escape, I look and I see and I keep escaping into my own world, but it's cold and lonely, reality is cold and harsh but what I see is not where I wanna live and feel my hearts passion, but I see something I can on my own create, can you see that also?

For me writing, music and emotions is who I am, my voice is not muted but the internal dreams is viewed with a personal clarity that reality often don't give me, due to not being understood, feeling confused and not understanding.

I am the red and the blue, but red without the pain and blue for the clear summer skies even if life does not conform to my view I still see it.

Trance music, writing, gaming, movies, cats, exercise
Uplifting trance, goa trance

My Penpal
Hi there I'm Thomas, I'm looking for a female email pen pal that likes to write and have something in common with me, I feel in terms of friendship, to define it, I think it's important to have something in common. and that is also more emotionally and not just interest, to understand the thoughts and want to be part in connecting together, and that to me is defined friendship.

In 1996 I started my interest in writing, as I gotten older, I became more into escapism, not to say writing is a form of storytelling, but personal thoughts and feelings I mean. I don't think there is a purpose for me to look at daily life and life and say that is worth writing about, what does that say about me as an individual, I don't think so.

If you like creativity in words, emotions inside your self, looking at things from how it feels, thoughts to share, that is what I embrace. I think a woman that can look at writing and feel the joy from it, can understand that what I seek is writing from the heart and soul, and not a phrase for nothing but write and feel, visualize the thoughts and see that being creative, being one self is writing, a reflection and a connection, together when being alone.

Writing is a longing for understanding and connecting, not about reality or stories, but about the heart of me as an individual, the sense that there is not pain, no confusion, no discomfort, just a connecting feeling of relating to one another emotionally, if you understand that contact me.

Anonymous and yet open and seen, closed off and yet welcoming, that is the form and choosing to express it in my own way.

My email for direct connection or a message here as a bubble of sorts, wizardnerevarine@gmail.com


Being intense, being passionate, to lay claim to personal interpretations in a subjective way. To be honest when deceitful, and smile when the sorrow deepens the depth of the red lost dream of love.
Outside air and impressions from a memory, it's fleeting as with the wind. Running with music it can linger with the pleasant temperature that gives autumn an embrace. Music my mind, music my heart.
Walking outside I think is environment based in it's appeal, outside of the practical steps to ones destination. Too many thoughts that can't match the environment, gets lost in the void of reality
I think I understand alcohol, when I looked at alcohol from a health perspective. The addictive feeling to me is the same as candy, one goes to the mind, the other the taste, together it need emotion.
Mortality in life, moments happy and sad, fragile. Vanity in the trivial to cope and to endure, to enhance a look and to feel meaning among others. Desire to seek something together, dreams of heart.
Expressing something in Swedish my native language can feel very static and formal, English has this colorful way to be personalized in it's expressions of thoughts, it's more internal then external.
If someone tells me or writes, it's all about me me me, and I am labeled an egoist that only talks about myself, it's both inaccurate and hurtful emotionally. I often wonder why I am misunderstood.
Running in the cold winter, my body gets cold and discomfort, I get more energy and and oxygen. Running in the hot summer, my body get more fatigued, but more comfortable. Music is equal in motion.
I go forward and not moving back, as I evade my past by letting memories fade and deny what has been and what is, to reach the embracing moment of what can be. I allow and search for clarity, dreams.
Associations, impressions and the senses give visions, visuals and it's not abstract or spiritual but it is totally emotional and give sensitive nuance to life, so the perspective is felt, not numb.




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